Pillow or OCD
Thank you for reading,
I realized I didn’t tell you last week that I had a sinus infection, which I finally got over. I also didn’t tell you that I blamed it on my new latex pillow that I bought. I thought about taking it back as soon as I got better. I don't ever want to be sick. That is my OCD talking. That is how my OCD started taking over my life, and how it got so bad that I thought about quitting my job. At my second doctor’s appointment that I went to to get better medications to get over my sinus infection I told the nurse practitioner how my new latex pillow did this to me. She told me it probably wasn’t the pillow, but something I got into. Well, my OCD tells me something different. Who should I believe, a nurse practitioner with years of schooling or my OCD with arguably just as many years, possibly more years in my head. It isn’t even that close. OCD is a clear winner. This has been in my head on and off since I got sick, being debated on if the nurse practitioner is right or not. The thing is I cannot let OCD win. I’m going to start using the new pillow again this weekend.
I saw Rachel this week. We talked a little about me getting out and dating. I’ve thought about doing online speed dating. I looked it up to show Rachel, then after showing her she tells me that I’m ruminating over the sites that I’m looking at. She was right. We noticed there are even a couple of speed dating in person events happening. She wants me to try one or the other. I’m scared to do either one. How do you trust the people running the speed dating events no matter if they are online or in person? I have to reason that I have to leave my trust in God. Rachel is trying to help me not just with my OCD, but with my social issues as well. My word for this year is Enthusiastic, and my phrase is Do it afraid. I guess I need to step up.
“You can choose courage, or you can choose comfort, but you cannot choose both.”
~Brene Brown
“We should stop asking ourselves how we feel about doing what we know we should do. If we don’t stop consulting our feelings, we will not finish many things in life.”
― Joyce Meyer, Do It Afraid: Embracing Courage in the Face of Fear
Here are some websites to find help with your OCD.
In Arizona
https://ocdandptsdtherapy.com/
https://ocdaz.org/
United States & Global
Please remember that I am not a therapist, but a person who has OCD, cares about others, and wants to help any way I can. I am not giving advice. I am just telling my own experiences, and praying my experiences help someone. If you need help please go get the help you need.
Until next time,
Tracy T. Agnelli
