OCD & Rushing
Thank you for reading,
It is nice to get back to a normal routine, since my aunt left on Monday. LOL! I say this, but I’m not sure I know what a normal routine is any more. I have so much going on or wanting to do that I feel that I’m busy non-stop a lot of times. It makes me wonder if this ties into me needing to be early to everything. Probably not.
About me being early. In the mornings I have tried to take my time to not to worry about leaving a minute or two late or even try to leave a minute or two late. I have some anxiety with this. I do everything normal in the morning, however, I have been stopping my writing about five to ten minutes later to try to push myself not to rush my writing or myself in the morning. I start getting dressed and start looking at the clock and moving quicker. I believe I left one to two minutes later only once or twice this week, even after taking more time with my writing.
Let’s take my appointment yesterday at 3:15 p.m. It takes fifty minutes to an hour to get there. I thought about taking off an hour of work to make sure I get there on time. I decided to leave only thirty minutes early, and that would have gotten me there fifteen to twenty five minutes early. This was hard for me to do. I ruminated about this a lot this week. I did get to my appointment twenty five minutes early. I still had to talk to myself at least half way there telling myself I will not be late or way too early. You don’t need to rush. It is better to be late, than hurting someone because you caused an accident.
I started talking to myself to help me realize I don’t need to rush to do anything. I need to remember to use the phrase Rachel gave me. Less extremely unreasonably early. Not late. I am doing a little better with this, like everyone else I want it to happen now.
My Contamination OCD this week, I started in the middle of the week to be more mindful of my OCD. I haven't been for awhile. I have been reacting too fast and doing compulsions. The rest of the week I did good. A couple of things I’m proud of is, at home I used the dust pan and broom and didn't use gloves or I didn't wash my hands. At work I picked up stuff outside and didn't wipe my hands off or wash them.
“In today’s rush, we all think too much, seek too much, want too much, and forget about the joy of just Being.” — Eckhart Tolle
“When you want to hurry something, that means you no longer care about it and want to get on to other things.” — Robert M. Pirsig
“Don’t forget to stop and smell the roses.” — Walter Hagen
Here are some websites to find help with your OCD.
In Arizona
https://ocdandptsdtherapy.com/
https://ocdaz.org/
United States & Global
Please remember that I am not a therapist, but a person who has OCD, cares about others, and wants to help any way I can. I am not giving advice. I am just telling my own experiences, and praying my experiences help someone. If you need help please go get the help you need.
Until next time,
Tracy T. Agnelli
