OCD Or An Irritating Person
Thank you for reading.
One morning this week I was leaving to go to work, and my street was blocked off. I had to go a different way. This bothered me a little bit. The first thing that crossed my mind was that I would be late for work. The next thing that bothered me was that I wasn't going down the same route I normally do. I had to talk to myself to tell myself it was fine going in a different direction. I probably should go in a different direction sometimes. Like Rachels to me, being less extremely unreasonably early. Not late. After about five minutes or so, I started to relax.
Right before my work shift was over, I got asked to do something. This really bothered me for the reason I had to go to therapy which is fifty minutes to an hour away without any problems. I hurried as fast as I could. I got really irritated because it was taking me longer than I wanted. On top of that I didn’t want to leave late or be late for my appointment, which I’m thirty to forty minutes early every time.
On the way back to my office to clock out, I remembered what Rachel told me last session. That she wants me to leave work later or go somewhere so I am not so early. I don’t know if I can do that. The what if’s set in. What if something happens to the vehicle and I have to fix it, or get around an accident, etc., then I would be late.
I left on time, but then started to worry about being late to my appointment with Rachel, even though I left on time. I was trying to hurry for no reason. Again, I had to talk to myself for a while to get myself to not worry about being late even though I left on time. The rest of the trip was much more relaxed, and smoother.
Me worrying about being late is a bigger problem than I thought I had. Once I started paying more attention to it in the last several weeks.
I’m doing better with picking stuff up outside without gloves. I still ruminate, but not as much. I do a little compulsions sometimes too. I am proud of myself for doing better with this.
A front office person went to the doctor on Monday and came in to work half a day. The person was sick, and wasn’t wearing a mask. Tuesday the person called in sick. Wednesday, the person came to work and I heard the person tell someone similarly that they could feel bad at home or work, and why not come to work. Thursday the person was walking by me and told me that they were trying to keep the distance between me and others because they were sick. The person still isn’t wearing a mask. Friday the person was feeling better.
This was really irritating to me. I like the person. They are a nice person in every way. I feel people are selfish when they don’t stay home when they are sick or at least don’t wear a mask.
Maybe this is my OCD talking, and I need to get over it. Am I wrong or right?
“Never be so busy as not to think of others.”
Life is 10 percent what happens to us and 90 percent how we react to it – Charles R. Swindoll
Here are some websites to find help with your OCD.
In Arizona
https://ocdandptsdtherapy.com/
https://ocdaz.org/
United States & Global
Please remember that I am not a therapist, but a person who has OCD, cares about others, and wants to help any way I can. I am not giving advice. I am just telling my own experiences, and praying my experiences help someone. If you need help please go get the help you need.
Until next time,
Tracy T. Agnelli
