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Happy Thanksgiving! I pray it went well for all of you. I survived mine with my family. LOL! My aunt came back down for three days. I still have issues with some of the stuff she does. The biggest one this time is the kitchen sink is clogged again, and hasn’t been bad since she’s been gone. I’m starting to see a pattern. LOL! I know it isn’t her. Now for the issue. She doesn’t want to fill the sink with water when she is waiting for the water to get hot for the dog’s food, so she uses the bathroom sink. My issue with this is that she turns the water on and off without using anything. People use the bathroom and wash their hands after using the bathroom, so if you touch the handles to get hot water then you are contaminating your hand(s) by not using something to turn the water on and off with. Does that make sense to you? I try not to think about everything she touches or watch her do it however sometimes it is hard not too. Instead of doing my tradition of going shopping on Black Friday, I worked on the kitchen sink. It is doing better, but I don’t think I solved the problem. She also puts her shoes on stuff sometimes, which to me is gross. I have talked about everything you step on with your shoes in a past blog, and how gross it is. No need to go there again.
The tradition has been for many years after Black Friday shopping to put up Christmas decorations. I did a little decorating after working on the kitchen sink. It took a long time to decorate so little for it was very difficult for me to do for the first time ever by myself. I thought about not decorating at all. I just couldn’t do that. I took pictures over the years as mom and I decorated, so I could decorate the same way she did. Now that she is gone, for some reason I don’t want to decorate like her, and I don’t think she would want it to. Another reason is that I think of the cost of having everything plugged in. I’m a little bit of a miser, or what mom would call herself a thrifty person. I will probably decorate more, but not this weekend.
I’m going to Disneyland with my family this week. There are fifteen of us going. I have never been there at Christmas. I cannot wait to go. There is a chance of rain a couple of days we are going to be there, however we are not going to let it get us down. It is going to be a Great trip. I decided to fly instead of driving for five to six hours. I like to have control over my trip as much as possible. This way I don’t have to worry about who is driving with who, what time everyone is leaving or meeting some place. Less chaotic for me. It is probably being a little selfish, however I feel it is okay to be selfish from time to time.
As for my OCD on this trip, it isn’t welcome. That doesn’t mean it will not show up. I have to go on doing things normally, nevertheless I have to pay attention that it doesn’t show up, or get out of control. Yes, I will wear a mask on the airplane. I will not wear a mask at Disneyland. There are a lot of people in both places, so why only wear a mask on the airplane? What is the difference? I have known a lot of people to get sick after flying. An airplane is enclosed, so I feel that it has a higher percentage of getting sick. I would rather wear a mask at Disneyland too, however I feel my OCD is the one telling me to wear a mask at Disneyland. I’m going to try to explain my reasoning. Me wearing a mask on the airplane is reasonable doubt. I actually know several people who have gotten sick flying to their vacation destination or back from it. Disneyland is an obsessional doubt to me for the reason I’m worried about getting sick before, during, and after vacation. Yes, people do get sick when on vacation, and at Disneyland. Me feeling that everyone at Disneyland is sick or contaminated without any evidence from my senses is my OCD talking. I pray I explained the difference between wearing a mask on an airplane and not Disneyland the right way. If not, I will hear it from Rachel when I see her in a week and a half.
Please don’t give up on beating your OCD, or anything else you are trying to beat. You are closer than you think to beating it.
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January 10, 2026 is Phoenix One Million Steps for OCD Walk. 8:00 a.m. - 10:30 a.m. at Kiwanis Park, Temp, Arizona, Check in at Ramada 14
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Please remember that I am not a therapist, but a person who has OCD, cares about others, and wants to help any way I can. I am not giving advice. I am just telling my own experiences, and praying my experiences help someone. If you need help please go get the help you need.
Until next time,
Tracy T. Agnelli
